Monday, May 2, 2011

TASK 2 - my excuses and story

Even as a kid I have never been much of a sport person or eating healthy, give me chocolate and foxtel any day.

I was always very small though guess coming from genetics.

right up til I was 19 I was a size 6 at 50kg, fairly toned, and had lots of energy for my partying lifestyle.

Then came the ex, He came from a european family who believed I was too skinny and I let myself believe them and fatten me up.

Over 5 years I put on 20kgs and went up to a size 14/16, Im weighing in at 71kg, Im short as well so its not like the weight sits well with my pudgy stomach.

At first it was we just never did anythign except stay home and watch movies, then when we would eat, i would try and match him at what he was eating. By the time i notcied the weight piling on, I made the excuse of what does it matter I have my love, and he loves me for me. What I didnt realise was how much this weight was effecting my self confidence and the freedom to be myself and own my life. (which to my ex was perfect)

Im turning 25 this year and newly single and i see the sad looks my family memebers give me for letting myself go, ive also heard my mum say “at jades age i had already had one kid and was half her size”

not to mention my lovely exs friends have said he “went elsewhere” in our relationship because i let myself go…

now dont worry Im not looking for sympathy or getting depressed, i appreicate all these things, cuz its fgiven me the power to fight, fight back for what i deserve and who i should be.

Im excited for these 12 wks.

Thursday, April 28, 2011


I have stepped up to the plate, and decided to take this journey seriously...cue Michelle Bridges LOL
you cant get more serious than that!

Is still have my PT at gym who is amazing but i figured having a support network might help motivate me!
So Hello to my new friends, and i am excited about this!

Weight - 71.8kg

body fat - 33.2 %

H20 - 48.8 %

bone density - 6.6

BMI - 28.4


arm - 32cm

chest - 100cm

waist - 96cm

hips - 106.5cm

thigh - 62cm

thats me in the white, in 3 years i out on 20kgs, went up 3 dress sizes and got lazy as all shit!
well no more

My goal is to be what I was before.
size 8

this is before the weight, this is what i want once again!

I will also try and post regulary now to keep everyone up to date with the challenge

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

My name is.....and I have a SHopping Addiction

what is the point in culling my wardrobe when all i do is keep refilling it?
but how do you stop....its winter, i need new season stock, and the red signs in myer and david jones never help!
not to mention watcing these reality shows, in their fabolous clothes, and shopping sprees....i was meant to be born into this family dammit
but i need to keep focus, so everytime i go to buy something i must think.....
1. you are in the process of losing weight, no point in buying things if it wont fit me in 4 months
2. im going to the USA in 10 months....

but if anyone else has any other tips on how i can resist the urge....please let me know....i need help!

ps. Ive heard the rumour thats all all over the news that fashion stores will now be charging a fitting room fee of $50....whats your opionon, cuz i know sure as hell when i shop for jeans i try on alot and sometimes i dont find what i not about to pay $50 to do this....your propostion is defeating its purpose, and puishing me even more to online shopping

Saturday, April 9, 2011

head Cold

Bloody head colds.....who needs em.
I have had this new companion for the last week and Im just about fed up I tell you.
I cant function properly, I cant go to gym, I cant have a social life.....HELLO im single now I need my social life.

So i have done the normal remedies, steam showers, vicks at night, codral cold N flu, and NADA, my dear friend the head cold is still here...

So i ask....who out there has some special secret that can send this thing on its way cuz Im sick of laying in bed doing Buffy marathons, I want to go out and play.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Time of my life....

Patrick Wayne Swayze was an American actor, dancer and singer-songwriter. He was born August 18, 1952 in Houston, Texas. He was best-known for his roles as romantic leading men in the films Dirty Dancing and Ghost. He was named Sexiest Man Alive in 1991 by People’s magazine. His film and TV career spanned 30 years.

He was diagnosed with Stage IV pancreatic cancer in January 2008, and he died from the disease on September 14, 2009 at the age of 57. His last role was the lead in the TV series, The Beast, which premiered on January 15, 2009. Due to a prolonged decline in health, Swayze was unable to promote the series. On June 15, 2009, Entertainment Tonight announced the show’s cancellation.

Swayze died "with family at his side" on September 14, 2009 at age 57. Swayze's publicist, Annett Wolf, confirmed to CNN that he had died of pancreatic cancer. He was cremated and his ashes scattered over his New Mexico ranch.

So I have recently finished Patrick Swayze's Biography....and it was every bit amazing as he was.
This man had such a hunger for life, and it was so insightful and so fearless.
Ever since I was a kid I have been in love with Patrick, I used to dream I would marry him LOL, I first discovered him in Dirty Dancing, and i used to dance around the house singing the songs from the movie.
I desperatly wanted to be Baby.

Later Ghost came, and at 6 i made my dad take me to the hairdresser and chop my long beautiful blonde hair into a bob just like demi moores from the movie.

Reading the book it was interesting to discover that he suffered from a long life of depression and alcoholism.
someone with so much passion and determination, he was rather inspiring how he took on the lows and faced them head on.

The book also talks alot about his relationship with his wife Lisa, The way he spoke about her, and their love. He stated for years that he didnt believe she truely lved him as much as he loved her. Now Im sorry but i just dont see how that is possible...hello....its patrick bloody swayze.

The good thing about this biography, is that he was brutely honest, he didnt hide behind the pages...he told it how it was, now matter how ugly it got.

He also happened to write my all time favourite song, that I hope some day i get to play at my wedding

Patrick Swayze

She's Like the Wind Lyrics
She's like the wind through my tree

She rides the night next to me
She leads me through moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
She's taken my heart
But she doesn't know what she's done

Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league

Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind
I look in the mirror and all I see
Is a young old man with only a dream
Am I just fooling myself
That she'll stop the pain
Living without her
I'd go insane

Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league

Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind

Feel your breath on my face
Your body close to me
Can't look in your eyes
You're out of my league

Just a fool to believe
(Just a fool to believe)
She's like the wind
(Just a fool to believe)

She's like the wind

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Hips Don't Lie

So being all fresh this morning for a sunday I made my way to the gym for Body Pump and a C25K week 1 day 2.
While running though I have come to notice that my hips are badly out of place to the point where it started to hurt, so I finished up early.
seriosuly how does ones hips just decide they are going to go out of place....Its not like Im 80 or anything...
should i look at pilates or yoga? will that help?

anyway Im going to look up a chiropractor tomorrow and see if they can work their magic

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I may be dead but I'm still pretty....

So I have rediscovered my 90's fix, and have been watching buffy from start to finish. As corny as it was this show really kicked ass. although some of the lines these writers wrote were beyond cheesy, and the i know the 90's was a little quirky but not that quirky....really? or have I just blocked it out?
I also forgot how hot angel used to be, except whenn he turned evil.

Its raining in brisbane, has been all day so instead of being the wild party animal that i should be, I am staying in unpacking winter clothes and watching I old? but this also gives me a chance to feel fresh in the morning so I can go to body pump and a run. WOrk off that sizzler i ate.

I'm going to start keeping record of my measurements and weight also, I'm hoping it will give me some motivation.

Weight - 70.8kg
body fat - 33.2 %
H20 - 48.8 %
bone density - 6.6
BMI - 28.4

arm - 32cm
chest - 100cm
waist - 96cm
hips - 106.5cm
thigh - 62cm

Here I am in the flesh, out in the open, and here I am saying goodbye, and hello determination.