Welcome back...welcome back...welcome back....welcome back

Im saying the title in tune with the welcome back kotter song LOL.
3pm loopyness is hitting if you couldnt tell.

So I have been MIA for quiet some time, was busy with the new job, and then i was off to KL, and Thailand for the month...but now here I am, bigger and better! (yes you read write bloody bigger if thats possible thanks thailand for all your banana pancakes of fat)

So i have rededicated myself to my fitness and goals, and figured this blog will be just what i need to keep myself accountable.
So i signed up for a new PT, the one i had previously was a female, and while she was great to train with...friendly etc. in the whole 3 months i saw nil results.
so under a friends rec i have contacted this guy who while he may not look like much (due happy relationship fat) he does regualary compete in competitions and knows how to shed the fat, and he is also very healthy.

After only training with him once, im already impressed, as he takes interest in my nutrion and what I eat, not one some diet off the internet recommends i eat.

so he has given me a rountine of working out 5 days a week, 3 days intense cardio, 1 day pt session and intense cardio after that and the last day a body pump class with intense cardio after that.

food wise he has said to steer clear of carbs after lunch....im struggling here
and to stick to a more protein diet.

So yesterday I did bodypump, I only used 2kg weights as i wasnt sure how it was gonna feel after lifting them for 30 mins. by the end my legs and arms were hurting and i was struggling to say th least. straight after I pushed myself to start C25K (i tell ya the day i finish this all the way through will be a mircle LOL).
According to my HRM i burned 530 calories in that 1hr and a half. pffffft come on now i know i can do better than this.....

I must say though today my legs are really feeling those lunges and squats I am Hurting!!!!! but god it feels great!

Its The Most Wonderful Time Of The year....

If you cant tell Im a sucker for Christmas, everything about it and in case your wondering yes I'm 24 not 10.
Its the only time of year no matter what I feel happy, I deck out my whole house, my work desk and constantly wear red white and green.
I go christmas light driving, have carols playing, and christmas movies on repeat.

So today I received my Vogue KK present....its such a brilliant idea, you send a gift and also receive one, and you have no idea who the person is let alone know them, you give hint and tips and its so great coming home to a gift from someone random, giving you christmas cheer.

So my KK listened to me and got me spot on. She got me a Healthy cooking book (i mentioned i have been trying to be healthy) a reusable water bottle ( I have always wanted one of these) and some nail polish ( i so needed them, but when i go to buy them i always think "am i really gonna waste $5 on nail polish). She also included a beautiful card, with great motivation saying to be strong, and things will get better. meaning she must of gone out of her way and stalked my blog to see the drama going on in my life.....KK if your reading I love you for your effort.

To add to the christmas cheer I have also purchased a family ticket for my mum, two sisters and me to go on a bus and go christmas light looking at all the best houses on northside of brisbane. corny I know...but whatever gives you that feel good feeling.

Now the only area where i have been slack is still not attacking the shops and doing my xmas shopping but this mission will occur tomorrow with my nana, wish us luck.

To finish off the post here are some of my favourite christmas movies, I promise when you watch these they will make you feel great.

Thailand Bound

In case you werent aware, here is the background story.....
Me and the horrible Jerk whos name we never speak of had planned a nice trip to thailand for us and another couple (my best friends)

of course you are all aware of how he turned into MY HYDE, and was this controlling cheating lunatic.

well further updaqte on the story, me playing nice and being friendly because i wanted to keep some form of a friendship with him and not let the whole 5 years be waste was a stupid mistake....WHAT WAS I THINKING.

so bloody naive....thought i knew best when really i should of listened to everyone else.

i found out two weeks ago he was still seeing her and letting her and her sisters talk crap about me....
im sorry but i find it hard to comprehend how you could have anything to say about me, when it was you sleeping with MY bf. (dont get me wrong she did me a huge favour, my life has benefited 10 fold since leaving him)

so finally i have cut all ties to him, cancelled his ticket to thailand, deleted his phone numbers, burned our photos, slashed the cute teddies, as far as im concerned i was in a comma for the last 5 years.

but onto the great news...IM STILL GOING TO THAILAND, but i will be single and partying and loving it. my cousin has said she will come which makes it even better. GIRLS TRIP



I have also found the most amazing trainer, she is a man hater like me, and has the most amazing body that i want to aspire to, as i type my arms are aching and this is from yestoday.

lets just say i love life right now.....

Be Back ASAP

Be right back

i promise,


worst blogger ever, but since starting new job had no time...

dont worry i will be back just in time for christmas

Im Chuck Bass....enough said.

I crave for a love as twisted as Chuck and Blair's. So much passion, so much angst.
When he is not playing bad chuck he could quite possibly be perfect.

I have been watching the start of season 4 and it is a great distractor.

some of my favourite lines...

Blair: Do you like me?

Chuck: Define like...
Blair: *laughs* You've got to be kidding, I do not believe this!
Chuck: How do you think I feel? I haven't slept! I feel sick, like there's something in my stomach... fluttering
Blair: Butterflies? Oh no ... no no no, this is not happening!

Blair: How could I still love you after what you did?

Chuck: So you did it just to hurt me. Eva made me into someone I was proud to be. You just brought back my worst self. This means war, Blair. Me versus you. No limits

Blair: Once men have tasted caviar, it baffles me how they settle for catfish.”

Chuck: "we don't need tickets, I'm Chuck Bass."

He just SCREAMS sex....seriously!

Last day today.....counting down the hours til i can go and have my goodbye $5 cosmos.... I shall take trashbag photos and update you all tomorrow.

Plan of Attack

Ok so new plan of attack and one im sticking to. Currently reading "40 days to a city cave man" all you fitness junkies its a agreat read and a real inspiration. It is also a great concept that Im wanting to adapt.

So nov 8th is Game day, That is when I start the New job, the New gym and the new pt.
I have made a deal with myself to only eat fresh food, work out 6 days a week.

my workout plan will look like this
Monday- C25K and Body Pump
Tuesday - Cross trainer for 10 min, bike for 10 mins, and then boxing class
Wednesday- C25k and pt session
Thursday - Rowing 30 mins, then Rpm,
Friday - C25k, body combat, zumba
Saturday Swimming then yoga

Over time Id like to throw more swimmingin there and take up dance classes again.
Im going to make sure I do a big shop of all healthy food for the new week, and am considering joining weight watchers to help me along.

On another note, I have a busy week ahead, and I love busy weeks because that means less time to feel sad and think about HIM

So tomorrow will be my last day at my job, its going to bed sad, I have made some great friends here. We will be going out for goodbye drinks.
Saturday I then Have a pro driving lesson, on my way to my license and freedom. That night I have A gf bday bbq!
Sunday i am going down the coast with the famz til Tuesday.

So I will try and fit in some posts and stop being so damn lazy!

update

So this may of been the longest I have not spoken to him, It feels amazing I feel stronger, but I do notice the absence.
I have come to terms with the fact that he will probably move on before me and thats because he is male and it just so happens like this.
In reality he has already moved on, the moment he chose to cheat on me he stopped caring about me, about us. He stopped being the man I fell in love with and became a wanker!

I still get scared, scared I wont find that happiness of a family, that I wont meet someone else i will love as much or more.
So if any of you are willing to share your sgtories and give me hope please do LOL.


So due to the various shenanigans for my birthday my goals of health and fitness have gone off the rails.
Dont worry I will be getting back on them as soon as my world finds some order, I have been sick due to the partying and have been on bed rest the last 3 days, luckily I bought a hard drive and have had hrs of movies and tv shows to keep me company.

I have written myself a form of a bucket list

http://www.43things.com/person/m1ssjade

if anyone wants to see pleas go there, great site and concept.

I have also considered weight watchers as a alternative to lite n easy, again anyone have any opinons on it lemme know.

BAHAHA speak of the devil he just called to say hi.....I know I know, im setting myself up for torture and i would be much better off if i just cut him off but i feel i need to go through thre thailand experience with him....crazy or what