There are times when I question what am I doing and is this the right action Im taking.
I spent 5 years loving him more than anything, I would of pulled the stars out of the sky for him. I truely thought I was the luckiest girl on earth to find someone like him who loved me.
He was the only person I have ever fully trusted in and confided to, the only one I let in.
5 years of laughter, tears, fights, love and endless hours of talking.
So after all thats said and done...what is the next right step?
I feel stupid and pathetic sometimes, i feel like I should cut him off and run, never look back.
Am I stupid for wanting to keep this strong friendship with him, even after he cheated, and lied, and cheated and lied some more. Am I stupid for letting him have my friendship, because after he found out the horrible thigns she said to me he continued their friendship.
Am I not respecting myself enough?
The thing is I dont know how to say goodbye to someone who holds such a big part of my life. I dont know how to turn off this feeling of love I still have for him after everything...
What is right and what is wrong, when do I start losing my self respect?
